If not, it can’t be helped

I do my thing and you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I,
and if by chance we find each other, it’s beautiful.
If not, it can’t be helped.
(Fritz Perls, “Gestalt Therapy Verbatim”, 1969)

I first came across the Gestalt Prayer while I was in high school. The moment I did, it completely resonated with me. I couldn’t forget it if I tried, it truly stuck with me and became my mantra. It’s the first tattoo I had gotten and it’s the one thing that continues to hold me together everyday.

The definition of a gestalt is “an organized whole that is perceived as more than the sum of its parts”. It’s when something that is made of many parts is sort of more than just its pieces. It’s what I believe about soulmates, that when two people are so deeply and utterly in love, they become two halves of one being. In a way they are people who are more significant together than as individuals. This goes back to what I believe about the universe, that everything that happens in our lives is meant to happen for a reason. We are meant to suffer, we are meant to lose, we are meant to cry and meant to die. It’s what makes us human. We should be celebrating our individuality, but at the same time, we should also take every relationship and cherish it.

To live is to meet new people and have their influences in our lives. Not every person who you come across in your life is meant to stay in your life, and that’s the way it is. What matters is what you take from that interaction, whether its a relationship or friendship or a random encounter with a stranger, and how you learn and grow from it. Maturity comes from age, and wisdom comes from experiences. If by chance you meet someone who has completely changed your perspective or loves you for your unique weirdness, then that is a beautiful thing. Your mind has expanded and you are all the more wiser for it. Some people are meant to come and go, and if they go, then so be it.

What I have come to realize is that we are all in this world to be ourselves. We are constantly changing. Humankind is both independent and interdependent. We rely on others as creatures of habit, but we also value our autonomy. The prayer taught me to live in harmony with my whole self and to be okay with attending to my own needs before others’. It means that once we are self-fulfilled, then we will be able to help others in the same way, thus creating beautiful relationships. Once you are able to truly be at peace with yourself and who you are as a person, then maybe you will be ready to be completely selfless and help others achieve the same.

If I were to write about all the lessons that I’ve learned from the universe, then I would be writing forever, for we never stop learning.

Nature or Nurture?

I’ve been meaning to write my thoughts on this subject for some time now, so I figured I’d finally try to put my mental babble into words. We all know of the age old question of what really makes us who we are. Are we more influenced by what we are taught, or do we inherently have traits in our personality that have been there all along? Take me for example, I can be incredibly stubborn when I need to be, a trait that both of my parents also possess. So does this mean that their tenacious nature was passed down to me through birth or have I grown to be stubborn from watching and learning from them?

I am often thinking about my personality and who I really am, something I’m sure a lot of us have wondered about at some point in our lifetimes. Exactly what events had had the most change in my being, and how different would I have turned out if something in my life had gone differently? If I had never moved from Scarborough to Markham when I was younger would I be more introverted than I am now? Or less? If I had never taken Visual Arts in grade 9 would I have never been inspired to pick up a pencil and try to draw something? If I had never decided to start a Tumblr blog, would there have been another opportunity for me to pursue writing?

Question: What do the above things have to do with Nature vs. Nurture?

Answer: Everything, actually.

If I continued to live in Scarborough for my whole life, then of course the behavior of my friends at the time would play a role in my personality. Back then I was a much more carefree and spirited person. I was a rambunctious tomboy who loved to auction off snacks at recess and played epic games of red rover with the class. The move from Scarborough to Markham had completely changed me. I retreated into myself, mourning the loss of my friends and the familiarity of my old home. I was very shy at my new school, a trait that I know I’ve always had but never really became more pronounced until after the move. Similar to this is the art situation. If I had never opted to take Visual Arts in grade nine to satisfy the required arts credit, then who knows if I would have thought at a later point in my life to try putting pencil to paper. Is my artistic talent now a result of what I’ve been taught from class and various tutorials or has it always been in my genetic makeup? As is with my writing, Tumblr is my personal space for when I write poetry and prose, something that I know I’ve gotten a lot better at over time. If I had not discovered the site, would I ever be as good of a writer as I am now, or was I always destined for it through my DNA regardless of how I got there?

See what I mean? Nature vs Nurture is everywhere. It’s such a crazy thought when it really sinks in, that something as small as making an account on a social media site or as big as deciding to pack up your family and move to the next city over can have such a tremendous impact on who we are. That isn’t to say that I don’t love who I am now, I’m glad that whatever big or small decisions I’ve made have led to me becoming my current self. And I mean, I’m pretty awesome if I do say so myself.